My Prayer Pillow

I bought a
Prayer Pillow.
I am Buddhist.
Well I am trying
to be.
You are not supposed to
kill anything.
I seem to want to
eat meat all the time.
So that is not good.
I bought this pillow
so I could pray for
the one thing I do
not have in my life.
LOVE,
To be loved.
I really do not know
what it is like to have
a man love me.
Think about me first.
Put my needs first.
Love me for
my insecurities.
When I cry..
tell me it will be OK.
Hold me and tell
me, I will be just fine.
So selfish for me
to pray for this.
I have a good job,
a little security.
Friends.
Great Family.
The only thing I
am missing is just
Love.
Love of who I am.
Who I could be.
I would give just
as much as I would get.
I sat down
on my Prayer Pillow.
I prayed.
I am still waiting.
I still have the receipt,
maybe I should return
it.
No..I will keep praying.
I would love someone,
so honest.
so sweet.