just a moment

I am just a
moment.
a quick
moment
for you.
God gave
me this heart.
And at times
I hate it.
I hate this
big heart I
have.
What you
do not realize
is with this
big heart
comes,
pain.
I feel pain
so easily.
Just a moment
I felt free
of that.
You filled it.
You made me
feel whole.
Normal.
In just a moment
with words you
speak my heart
opens up
and spills on
the table.
the pain is so
bad I am sure
I quit breathing.
I kept eating.
chewing.
trying not
to pass out.
as you kept
talking my mind
was spinning.
I could not
see clearly.
For just
a moment
I thought
I found
you, my love.
It was if
God was sitting
in the room
making me see
who you are.
It hurt.
more than you
could know.
I heard a voice
in my head,
It said
simply
This is not your moment.
This is
just
a
moment.
It will hurt.
more than you will know.
this is just a moment.
my heart is broken.