looking at somone else's life.

I have
been crazy
busy
for months.
I have not
had a moment
to sit for one
moment.
But right
now, I do.
I sit in a coffee
shop.
sitting drinking
my hot black
cup of coffee.
clear your
head.
I start to watch
other people.
moving.
talking.
I think of
my life.
The friends,
the family.
People I made
my family.
How did
I get here?
I feel at
times I do
not deserve
all of this.
I remember
talking to
god, on my
knees
begging
him for
a new life.
I said,
If you just
give me
a new life,
one I could
call mine
and love.
I would
do anything
for you.
Give me
someone Else's
life, I asked.
God
did just
as I asked.
It is perfect.
Now I feel
guilty,
because I
think someone
will miss it.
All I can
do is respect
this gift.
As I drink
my cup of
coffee,
I say out
loud...
Thank You God.
someone turned
around and
said
AMEN!
And I knew
God got
my message.