Baby oil and wine

I went to dinner

with you

because you

are my friend.

you drove to meet

me knowing

my heart is broken.

We have a very strange

relationship.

You have been 

a mentor to me.

someone who 

inspires me.

Love you?

Yes, 

but not romantically.

You are actually

getting married.

I am so happy

for you.

Your first

wife,

like my

ex, 

slept

with anything.

At dinner

we talk

and laugh.

We dated

briefly and are

very attracted

to each other.

we knew 

friendship was

really 

where we 

Are at

Our  best. 

You remind me 

of our first

date.

Laughing

my stomach is

in pain and

so are my

cheeks from

smiling.

You smile

at me.

I love you.

You say to me.

I sit and stare 

we have never

said these 

words to each other.

I love you too.

I say with all my heart.

When I think 

of you, I say

I think

of someone who

pushes 

me to be better.

You smile,

When I think of 

you, 

you smile

I think

of baby oil

and wine.

I laugh

and respond,

You always have

to go to 

sex.. I smile.

You respond,

seriously I think

of you as 

baby oil,

so innocent and sweet.

When I smell that smell

I think of new

I think of 

sweetness and pure light.

I smile,

and say,

thank you, and wow.

Ok, I say 

how bout the wine?

You take my hand

and look at me.

I feel a little 

uncomfortable.

You are like wine,

when I am near

you I feel like I can 

do anything,

you make me feel

dizzy yet invincible.

When you look at

people,

they see those two

things.

They know they will

be ok.

I 

sit

thinking.

Thank you,

I reply.

we sit in silence,

almost reading 

each other's minds.

What if we had

tried?

What if we would

have persued each 

other?

I look down to 

break the awarkness.

I am happy for

you,

I say.

on your marriage.

You look at me

and wink.

Thanks.

It has to 

Work 

Nobody else 

could possibly love me.

I agree,

I know,

I say.

I feel like I will

never find someone.

To love me.

We finish up dinner

and you walk me

to my car.

We hug,

and as I let 

go you pull 

me close and

say to me.

You finding someone

to love?

Baby,

The whole world

loves you.

Thats your problem.

Why?

I say.

You look at me.

Who can compete

with the world?

I am not sure

I understand,

I say.

You smile.

How could you

you say.

you are

pure baby

oil.