I Would Not Hurt Myself.

You 

will never

know how 

close I 

was. 

I have 

never 

been 

so scared 

in my whole 

life. 

It was 

one moment,

just one.

I walked 

outside 

got in 

my car 

and knew.

I knew 

this was 

the fork 

in the road. 

I drove 

to you

and sat 

in my car.

what to say? 

The tears

rolled down

my face

but I could 

no longer 

feel them. 

My face

had become 

numb to 

these kind 

of tears. 

So I got 

out 

of my car 

and realized your

response 

would save me 

or break me. 

And you did 

not even know it. 

As I spoke 

you simply 

said 

Be Done.

And for 

the first time 

in a 

very 

long time

I felt my 

tears,

and I 

knew.

I knew

that I 

was gonna

be able 

to make 

it,

And

I would not

hurt myself.