Erika Anna

I never
knew I wanted
you until
that day.
I picked out
your name.
For reasons
so personal.
I thought I
was pregnant.
For the first
time in my life
I wanted a child.
Your child.
I touched my tummy.
Yes, I feel
so different..
I must be pregnant.
You would be the
smartest, most
beautiful little girl.
For days I dreamed
of you.
seeing you.
hearing you.
That morning
my period came.
You were not
to be.
I think about
you Erika Anna.
I think about
your father.
What a Good
man he is.
But mostly
I think of me,
loving you
and actually
being a mother.