Letting you Go.

I just
could not
let you go.
This last time
was hard.
I thought
about it
long and hard.
Why do you
want him in
your life?
Does he love you?
respect you?
These past couple
years he ran
away from
you...Is he
even your friend?
Why is he good
for you?
I thought long
and hard, my heart
aching..
I finally realized
why I was holding
on to him.
It felt normal to
me to have
a man make
me feel bad about
myself...The pain.
I was always
the one to
take responsibility
for why things
did not work
out.
Dysfunction.
That dysfunction
felt so natural.
That is all I knew.
I finally have seen
some normal.
some peace.
some easy.
some Integrity.
I like the way
that looks.
so this time
The letting Go
is so easy.
I am ready.
Ready
for easy, peaceful
and Honesty.
My new self
is letting my
old self simply
say...
Goodbye.