Waking up..

As I got
up this morning
things seemed
different.
A good
different.
A clean slate.
I put what I want
out there and
now its time
to just accept
it.
receive it.
Lonely is
hard,
but being
used is worse.
I just woke
up and started
to figure it
out.
When you are waking
up first thing in
the morning
its foggy and
your body feels
heavy.
You do not
want to wake
up because it
feels
good, the dream,
the reality
you are in at that
moment.
At times you force
yourself back down
into your sleep
trying not to wake
up.
But you do
and you will.
I was not sleeping,
I was just fooling
myself.
Saying this is the
way the world is
now, you just
have to play
the game.
Well guess What?
I am waking up
and I realized
I do not have
to play like that.
As I shuffle to the
kitchen to get my
first cup of coffee
the sun shines
through my kitchen
windows.
I am waking up
to me
to my real life,
and it feels so
good.