Flowers

All of a sudden
I have started
to find
my love of
flowers again.
For years I
would not look at
them.
buy them.
smell them.
they were my
love once.
And when
that did not
work out,
I could not look
at a flower
or smell a flower.
It made me angry.
I woke up
one day and
started to plant
a flower here,
and then one
there.
I let them creep
back into my
heart.
This morning as
I smell the flowers
I see my life
changing
starting again.
I am no longer
fighting it.
I am letting
the good in.
I am letting myself
feel the good
stuff.
its scary,
but just like
flowers,
life...
grows
changes
and you have
no control.
The choices
I have are
to just
bend down
and smell the
flowers and
know
God has
a plan for me.
He has so far.
I have not always
liked it.
I have not always
trusted it.
But the one
thing I was
able to do
right now,
Is open my heart
and empty
all the hate out.
The minute I
did that,
God,
He sent me
flowers.