I remember a moment

I called you
at work.
I was crying.
My life was
falling apart
and I asked you
if you would spend
the day with me.
You left work and
we went to the
mountains.
I cried.
so hard I could
not breath.
You said nothing.
You held my hand.
My marriage
was not longer.
My life was changing
and I had no idea
what to do.
sitting
on
a mountain
side.
I said
I can not.
You said nothing.
we walked the
trails
I cried,
and cried
and yelled.
You bought me
a yellow bracelet
made from yellow
leather.
You put it on
my wrist and
said, when I
am not around
this will give
you strength.
I hugged you.
we hiked some
more and the
day grew long.
I did not want
to go home.
You pushed me
to the car.
Mom, I said.
I can not.
You looked at
me and said,
yes
you
can.
And you will.
I still have
that yellow
bracelet.
I put it on today.
My life feels
a little out
of control.
You noticed on
my arm today.
You still have that?
yes, I say.
I need it today.
we get ready
for our walk.
I turn to
you and
say,
Mom..
I can
and I will.
You smile at
me,
You bet your
skinny ass you
will!
As I walked
with headphones
on.
blocking out
the things
that really do
not matter.
I will.
I Can.
And you can
bet your
ass I will.