A change

I have changed.
It was a week.
A week of
being someone
else.
Feeling trapped,
and helpless.
Unable to
make a choice
that I wanted
to make.
Life is funny.
You think
you have all
these choices
but sometimes,
sometimes...
Your path
is already made.
Your choice is
to just walk.
Walk and wait.
I have never
been a good
person about
waiting.
Rush, rush
rush..is my middle
name.
This morning
I felt a change.
something so
profound.
Not even sure
if I could put
it into words.
After this
week I am
a different
person.
I want to
live life.
But differently.
slowly.
carefully.
and most
important,
I want to live it
just for me.
Not for my
family.
Not for my
friends.
Not for any
man.
I want
to walk down
my path for
the first time,
and I want to
do it all
by myself.
The choice
I was going
to have to
make was
because of
my friends,
family and
men.
It would not
have been
my choice.
I will never
be that
powerless
again.
because for
the first time
in my life..
my choices are mine.
I always feel i
have to please
others and
this morning
the only person
I feel I should
please,
is me.
all it took
was a moment
a serious
choice to make
me see,
to make me change.