With or without you.

After the
movie
we are waiting
in the parking lot
just to get out.
It is a crisp
evening.
The windows
down and
the smell of
fall is here.
We are at
a dead stop.
Waiting,
I say.
I am turning
on your radio.
OK, you respond.
As I flip through
the stations,
you quickly
say...go back!
OK, OK. Nerd.
I say to you
and wink.
Its U2
singing
with our without
you.
It makes me
feel a little
uncomfortable.
It should not.
We have
been seeing
each other
only 10 months.
Its quiet in the
car and then
you start to sing.
WITH OR
WITHOUT YOU...
OOH.
you are so off
key and off beat
and bad.
I start laughing.
We both start
singing off
key and laughing.
When the song
ends we move
to another song.
We are moving
now.
Sitting in
Silence.
You grab my
hand.
I smile.
Breathe, you
say to me.
Breathe in
this life.
I am , I say.
No..
you say,
breathe
in
this
life.
I am
afraid,
i respond.
I am so
exhausted.
You say
nothing.
I know you
are going
to say
something
I will not want
to hear.
You start
to speak and
then you
start to sing,
I cant live
with or without
you....
I put my
hands on your
lips... shh.
stop that.
I say.
You move my
hand away
and look at me.
I will live with you.
Or I will not live
without you,
you say.
I just look at
you.
You start to drive
again.
I can not
even think.