You are special.

talking to you
last night
about our
trip.
Our horseback
riding
trip.
I am a
little nervous.
You are so
excited.
I am dating
2 guys
at once.
Not really where
I want to be.
But these are
the new rules
on dating.
Men love to
mulitple
date.
I have to do
the same not
to get hurt.
But in my
core.
In my heart
it still feels
wrong.
We talk
longer
and you hear
something
wrong in my
voice.
Hey, You
say...this is ok.
You are ok.
Am I ?
I say outloud.
Am I ok?
Life is short.
I say,
I just want to
make sure
I make good
choices,
but at the same
time I do not
want life to
pass me by.
Honey,
you say..
Its horseback
riding.
dinner, hiking
and feeding
the horses
apples.
Ok , I say..
I just do not
want to give
you the wrong
idea.
You laugh
at me.
If you wear the
hat I sent
you with nothing
on that would
be a good idea!
I start to laugh...
You are so special
I say with a laugh.
Hey.
You pause..
You are special
sweet and kind.
and do not
forget it, you say.
Am I?
I think.