I had two children

my children died.

I had two.

They were

not human,

they were

dogs.

But I raised

them,

Bathed

them

feed them

and loved

them.

Laugh if you 

want.

Shake your

head and

get upset 

and tell 

me I am

crazy.

It is ok.

I never had

children.

Not sure

why.

I tried.

Secretly

for 23 yrs.

But never.

My pups were

my children.

Maxine the oldest

was 14 

when 

she died.

14 yrs of 

kisses and 

love.

Buddy was 5.

5 yrs of energy

love and just running

around.

I am not sure 

why,

but I stopped

asking.

making excuses,

for loving these 

beautiful beings.

Why should

I have to explain

it.

my saddness

will not 

change.

My heart

still empty

I feel so 

bad.

So here I 

am the crazy lady

who lost both

her loves.

Maxine taught me

to not give up.

Buddy taught me

to love myself.

And I gave

them

the only thing

I could

Love to start

and peace 

at the end.

I hope

they find

each other.

As I lay

down

to sleep

I am

empty.

my heart

is so empty.

God gave

me

Children.

He just

gave

them

to me

as 

dogs.

I am thankful.

I am miss them.

But all I can

say is,

They were

both pure

love.