The other side

I invited my

Therapist 

To my dance 

Class.

It is something

I did not

Want 

To do

But we are

At this place.

I am at

This place.

I need her 

To see me.

Understand.

She will never

Understand

Untill 

She sees me 

Dance.

I am not 

Good at 

A lot of things

But

Dancing..

Let's just 

Say you can see

My soul.

I can't 

Explain it.

So today 

I see her.

I walk over

And we talk.

I speak 

Softly and

Very nervous.

I am second.

Ok, she replies.

Does it matter

Where I stand?

No, I reply. 

I am just 

Nervous.

Not a lot 

Of

People

See me 

Dance.

She smiles 

Sweetly,

It will be fine.

I am up 

Next and very 

Nervous.

I put my music

On

It's one republic 

Counting stars.

As I float

I am gone.

I cannot explain 

Where I am

You will

Watch 

Me

And want 

To follow

Me.

Catch me.

If you can.

The music

Feeds my 

Soul 

My heart

Is beating

With 

The music.

Spinning

Spinning 

You will not

Catch

Me.

Unless 

I let you.

You want to.

Just hold

Your 

Hand

Out.

I 

Will

Take

You

On

This

Ride.

Ready ? 

...

Will be 

Counting

Stars.

The music

Stops.

I 

Try to 

Catch 

My breath.

I walk over

To my therapist.

I make 

Eye contact

With her.

Her eyes

Are wild.

You,.

She speaks,

You are 

A horse running

Through a field.

I could not catch 

You.

She looks 

At me 

And says 

What are 

You 

Running from?

I look down

At my feet.

Breathing so 

Heavy I 

Might

Pass out.

I lift my

Head,

Not

Wanting

To say.

I say his 

Name.

Ronald.

She looks

At me

And 

Asks

Who is this

Man you 

Are running from?

I want 

To 

Say it.

Finally 44 years 

Let's me.

I 

Am

Running

From

A monster.

I say

I 

Am

Running

For

The

Finish 

Line.

I am running

For a little 

Girl.

I am running

For who 

I want to 

Be.

I am

Running

From...

My

Father. 

my therapist 

Looks at me

We sit 

In silence.

I look at 

Her eyes

And see tears.

She replies,

He will

Never catch

You.

You are 

Too far 

Ahead.

She thanks

Me and leaves 

The dance 

Studio.

And 

I for 

Once I 

Feel like

I might 

Be ahead.

My teacher 

Comes

Over and 

Asks,

You ok?

I smile.

Yes.

I reply.

Do you want 

To dance

Another

Dance?

He asks.

Yes,

I respond.

This dance

Will be for 

Me.

He smiles.

Pick your 

Poison.

Jason derulo,

I say.

The other side.

I get in the middle

Of the floor.

I see my reflection

I float 

Spin 

And 

I 

Am

Off

To

The other

Side .