Release

It's been

Along 

Time

It's actually 

Been

Years

Since I 

Was able

To be

Me around

A man.

Maybe 

That was

Something 

I did. 

Thinking

I was not

Good

Enough.

I was never

Told

This

I was simply

Shown this.

Shown 

I was not 

Enough 

Woman.

Shown

That I 

Should

Not speak

My mind

Shown

That I should 

Be very submissive.  

That's how you

Keep a man.

Through all

This all I wanted

To use was one

Muscle.    

My heart 

I wanted

To give my

Heart and 

Get someone's 

In return.  

Outer  beauty

Inner beauty 

All of that

Follows once

The heart is

Released and

Exchanged.

Today 

Laying 

In my

Bed sick.  

I feel the possibility. 

I feel like it 

Could happen.

So scared..

As my ceiling

Fan circles 

Around I start

To fall asleep

And dream.

I feel my heart

Release.

It floats up 

To 

The ceiling and

Floats through

The blades of

The fan.

For the first 

Time it feels 

Good to

Let it be free.

I will let it

Go soon.

All that needs

To happen is it

Gets rescued 

And I get one in

Return

A woman can

Not live without 

A heart...

But if she

Dreams 

And

Releases.

Maybe....