As you sleep

You sleep

And I walk

Quietly

Around

Your house. 

Sitting at 

The table 

Drinking

Tea and eating

An orange.  

Silence as

The sun

Is coming

Up.

The night

Before filled

With 

Moans and 

Kisses.

A feeling

A release. 

Hoping

You see me.

Hoping

You 

See.

As I get ready 

To leave 

I leave 

All on my 

Own.

Sitting 

In my car

The blanket

Of regret 

Fills my head.

Why did 

I say that?

Why did

You not respond.

I drive to

Work,

Trying not 

To cry. 

I get to 

Work 

And the voices

Start.

What are you 

Doing?

Do not be 

Foolish?

I start work 

It is crazy 

And my stomach

Hurts from

All my overthinking.

I realize 

All of this 

Happened

While you 

Are asleep.

How do 

I get to that

Place where

I simply 

Sleep 

Through it?

Will

I ever

Sleep 

Again.

Sleep with

No guilt 

No regret.

I am waiting.