You let me go

I needed 

You to let go

And it finally 

Happened.

I checked 

A old email

Account.

I saw your 

Name.

I almost 

Did not 

Read it.

I did

I did read it.

All the personal

Details 

I needed to hear

Were right in 

Front of me.

Did I want to

Go back?

What if I 

Got stuck 

Again?

I jumped in 

And read your 

Words.

Crying so hard

I gasped for 

Air.

It was there

The details

The whys

You apologized

And in 

That moment

I was free.

You finally 

Let me go.

You freed me.

I thought 

Deep down

I caused this.  

Losing my 

Best friend,

My life.

You have given

Me

Many gifts 

Of love when

We were married,

But this

Was the gift 

I needed.

It was the gift 

For 

Me to be 

Free and 

To forgive

Myself.

We agreed

Not to 

Contact 

Each other.

I deleted

The email.

I sat in 

Silence for 

Awhile.

I started smiling.

You let me go

And I could see

Your face smiling.

20 years of 

Life. 

All I could think

To say is 

Thank you.

Thank you

For those 20 years.

And thank you

For letting me go.