I realize

It finally came 

To me

As I put

My head

Against

My pillow.

I am

Unlovable.

I give

Love 

Every

Single

Second

Until

It is spilling 

Out 

Of my

Veins.

I am

Exhausted.

When

I wake 

Up 

I am

Done.

I am

Done

Loving

Those who

Can not 

Love.

I am done

Giving 

To those 

Who can

Not give. 

It's 

Survival 

And I 

Want

To

Survive.

I want

To be 

Loved.

Please

Dear god

Let me 

Wake up,

And

Realize.