Oil on my face

I wash my

face,

like I do 

every night.

Today was 

a restful day.

A day to reflect.

Reflect on where

I am and 

where I want to 

be and who

I want to be with.

At this point

in my life

I have just 

fallen in 

love with me.

In doing

this, 

it makes 

it hard for

me to have

a relationship.

I had many

before

all bad.

All one sided.

But now

I want more.

I deserve more.

I look in the mirror

at my reflection.

I pull my hair

back and start to

wash my face.

I have more lines

and more grey hair. 

but what I have now

that I did

not have back then was

a love for myself.

I take vitamin

oil

and put it all over

my face. 

It fills in

the lines

and for a moment

I look younger.

Then the oil

quickly 

seeps in

and I am me again.

Right now,

my age.

Its ok..

Because I love

me and I will never

go back to who I

was.

Or the men I

gave myself too.

And I will never

go back to youth 

before I needed oil on my 

face.

I am love.