The black bench

I sat in 

The sun.

Crying.

It was 

A beautiful 

Spring day.

The cows 

Were in the 

Field 

Next to 

Me.

The breeze 

Was warm 

And sweet.

It gently 

Blew my 

Sundress

Over my 

Knees.

I sat on 

My black

Bench 

And cried.

My dogs 

Maxine and 

Buddy ran in

The front 

Yard of

This little

Rental.

I was lost.

My heart 

Broken.

I was starving

Myself

Convinced 

This is 

How I would 

End my 

Life.

I looked

Up to 

The sun

And prayed.

I prayed to 

God.

God

Let me find love

Let me find me.

The wind blew

With intensity.

What next?

My dogs 

Layed at my 

Feet and looked 

Up at me

With their 

Loving 

Eyes.

I never knew

It would be 

Like this..

4 years 

Later I 

Am sitting

In my 

Bedroom.

The sun

Beating 

On my face.

Maxine and Buddy 

Are gone.

But 

I finally found 

Myself.

I start to 

Write and

My thoughts 

Drift to 

You.

I have told

Some men

That I have

Loved them.

I have told myself 

I have loved 

Myself..

But honestly 

It was 

Not real.

But now 

For the first 

Time in my

Life I 

Truly love

Myself.

And I am ready 

To open 

My heart.

Then I Met you,

I think about 

Me sitting 

On that 

Black bench.

It took awhile

My love.

But I found 

Myself

And I 

Found 

My peace.

I 

Found you.