Just a dream

I am 

Dreaming 

Again

Of 

Your 

Warm

Love.

I am worried.

I saw

Something

That

Should 

Not have 

Bothered me.

But it did.

I read it

Over 

And 

Over.

It's your past.

But 

I

Quickly 

Realized 

I should 

Protect myself.

So I 

Am holding 

Back.

Which is 

My talent.

I can not 

Get hurt 

Again.

Not like this.

I would 

Not recover.

I was dreaming.

Again living

Not in 

Reality.

You did 

Love her.

If she was still

Here, 

She would 

Be your first

Choice.

And 

Once again

I feel it.

I feel second.

I have been

Second 

My whole life.

I swallow it 

Down.

It burns 

Knowing 

This.

Because 

I was 

Dreaming...

I was dreaming 

I was first,

But now 

I am 

Awake.