What pain is

I never

Met you.

And sadly 

If you were 

Still here

I would 

Never have 

Met the 

Love of 

My life.

Pain comes

In different 

Forms.

But mine 

Is physical.

It's been

A week

Of pain

Crying 

Exercising

Stretching

Medication

And now 

Physical 

Therapy.

Today while 

At the doctors

I was in 

Therapy.

I was thinking 

Of you. 

Your life.

How you 

Loved the same

Man I do.

Are you making 

Me feel 

This pain?

I was looking at 

My X-rays.

My doctor 

Starts talking 

To me about

Why I feel 

This pain.

It makes sense 

When 

I see my bones.

As I am leaving 

And making 

The appointment 

For the next 

Day,

You call me 

The wrong

Name.

I walk

Up to the 

Receptionist to

Pay.

I am stunned.

I was just 

Thinking of 

You.

Saying a prayer

For you. 

Thanking you.

The doctor 

Called me 

Your name.

As I stood 

Waiting for 

My papers 

To sign.

I asked myself 

Did you hear

That?

The receptionist 

Asked me,

Jenny,

How would 

You like 

To pay?

I paused 

And said,

Visa.

As I stood 

I understood.

Not my pain 

But 

Yours.

I waited 

Almost unable 

To breathe.

The receptionist 

Handed me the paper 

To sign.

As I signed

I felt the relief 

Of my pain.

It lifted 

In such a

Way

That I 

Almost missed 

It.

The receptionist 

Quickly 

Apologized

I am sorry.

I meant 

Christina.

No problem

I responded.

As I walked 

To the car 

I could barely 

Breathe.

In this moment 

I felt 

What real 

Pain is.

I got in my 

Car and 

Started to

Cry.

All

I could say 

Was 

Thank you.

You have given 

Me the gift 

Of pain.

The gift of love.

The gift 

Of you..

Jenny.