To please you

As I asked the

Question 

I knew 

I should have 

Not asked.

I was ready 

For your response 

In my head

But not my heart. 

At times I 

Feel like you 

Are reminding 

Me that if she was 

Alive

I would 

Not be with 

You.  

It's true

I know it

I still don't 

Like to hear 

It. 

I guess the same 

For 

me is true.

If he had 

Not cheated 

I would be 

With him. 

But I don't say 

That.  

I have learned 

Long ago 

The words 

Can hurt.  

So as you responded

To my question

It hurt.  

The questions 

Started in my mind.  

Do I not please you?

I pushed it down 

And let it go.  

But it was still 

There.

I am not responding 

Because it's not

Fair.  

I opened that 

Door.

As I stood in the 

Hot steamy 

Shower I reminded 

Myself that I am

A beautiful 

Caring 

Giving

Woman.

I will not please you.  

Those days are 

Over for me.  

But I will

Love

Protect

And stand up 

For you.  

I simply am 

Not her.   

Your feelings 

Are yours.

You own them

And I would never 

Judge you for that.  

I hope you 

See me as me.  

I am different

I am pure love.