Yellow and Turquoise

Yellow
was about 10 years
ago.

I stayed at this house
10 years ago.
I was married.
and I was lost.

I remember
in this little
yellow house
I decided
to live my life.
no more hiding.
I would find
myself and fall
in love with me.
Would this be
possible?

Turquoise is right
now. Right
Here.


This home of Turquoise
stands tall and is right
next to my little yellow
house
I stayed in
10 years
ago.

I found myself.
I
fell in
love
with myself.
I sit
on
the deck
of the
turquoise
house
and feel
the night
ocean
breeze
whisper
in
my ears.

Looking
to my
right
at that
Yellow
house
 I feel
the past
circling
me.

How strange.

I have come full
circle and
the past
meets the
present.

I remember
getting down
on my
knees
and praying
to God
to help me
get through
this
hard time.
I sat there
so long
that I
got splinters
in my
knees
from
the
wood.
Bleeding
and sore
I got up
and
pushed through.

Now in the
future
here I am.
I am sitting
where
Yellow
meets
turquoise.
In this
moment
its
Bittersweet.

Bitter
Because
it ended so badly.
Sweet because
I found
myself
and have
no intentions
of
losing
me
again.
Not to
yellow
and
not even
to
turquoise.