Let the Control Float

 The fear of 

losing what 

you love

is real.

At first you 

push 

it into 

the back 

of your 

mind 

because 

after all,

you have time.

Then it 

creeps in 

your 

thoughts. 

Like 

a thick

cake batter

it takes 

time to 

fill your 

head.

But 

when it does

its like 

Sweetness

overload.

It hurts.

Your head

your stomach

your body

feel so overloaded 

that you must 

walk away.

Even the smell

of sweet cake 

makes you sick.

You have over

analyzed these

thoughts

too much and 

now you are sick. 

Wanting to control

life.

Wanting to control

this moment.

This calm 

This happiness

you know you

can't. 

As the insomnia

kicks in

and I am walking 

through my home

in the middle of the 

early morning

I let those feelings

go.

Listening to the 

up coming storm

brew outside 

I walk to you 

while you are 

sleeping 

and kiss

your 

forehead. 

You are my life

and my fear.

I love you.

I let the control float into 

the air

because I 

have no control.