Laughing at Mountains

The Mountains 

would laugh at me 

daily. 

Because they 

knew what I was trying 

to do, could not be done.

Every spare moment 

I had I was outside. 

fighting a war. 

I could see 

the life 

I deserved and 

I wanted it 

so badly. 

I remember 

the day

my heart 

was broken and 

I knew 

I was no match. 

I lay on the side 

of the mountain 

with Doc Martens 

on and safety googles. 

It was a hot August 

day and 

I could do not

move.

I was armed with 

a mini tractor 

and a weed wacker. 

I had cuts

and bruises 

all over me 

from the wilderness. 

I took off my clothes. 

The heat 

was unbearable. 

I was standing 

in the middle

of this huge 

piece of land 

naked in 

Boots.

I saw a truck 

crawl up 

the steep mountain 

side. 

It took a moment to

realize I 

was in fact 

naked and 

It was the Propane 

truck, 

coming up 

the mountain side 

to fill up the tank. 

I could not move. 

I just stared 

off because I 

did not care. 

I was swimming 

in my 

defeat. 

My failure. 

I would not have 

this life. 

It would 

not be mine. 

As the truck 

driver got out,

he asked if 

I needed help..

if I was ok. 

I just started crying. 

Sobbing.

I knew it was the end.

All those

years,

all that hard work. 

I could not make a 

change. 

No Matter

what I did 

it did nothing. 

As I sit on this 

bench listening 

to the beach 

wind whisper in

my ear.

I realize 

sometimes 

you are on the 

side of the mountain 

and you are trying 

to move it, 

and nothing is 

happening. 

You feel worthless. 

numb. 

Why have you 

been investing 

all those years,

for what?

Then I remember 

what that truck 

driver said to me 

all those years ago. 

He said,

Lady!

I don't know 

who needs to 

tell you this 

but, 

You are one 

tough mother fucker. 

Stop your crying 

and get some sunscreen 

on your ass. 

And just like that,

I laughed thinking 

about my stubborn 

passionate

ass. 

And I laughed 

at those Mountains,

because I do have

the life I 

deserve.