I will Start Again.

I awake

swimming

in my freedom.

Its scary

to allow yourself

this.

You should know

better.

I feel

the cold tile 

on my feet.

As I open the 

doors

to my

garden 

I know.

I cant let 

this feeling

swim in 

my head.

The what

ifs are all 

over the place.

Calm

yourself. 

I see the 

beautiful 

meadow 

before 

me and I want 

to run.

The run 

of a young 

woman.

Happy and free.

So I do 

and right as 

I feel the tall grass

embracing my 

my legs and hands

I wake up. 

And then 

I realize

Its the one thing

I miss.

Running 

with no fear. 

So maybe 

today 

I will start

again.