I Am Truly Free.

 I feel alive 

in this moment 

staring at the ceiling 

as I spin. 

Thinking

about our conversation. 

The validation.

I knew I 

was not crazy.

So as I 

allow myself 

to embrace the music

for the first time

in years

I remember 

who I am.

I should have left

5 years ago

when I heard 

those voices.

But my need

to fix

to strengthen 

to do better

as a woman 

made me stay.

So as I dance

I spin and see

my reflection 

in the Apple

Shaped piece 

of metal

you gave me.

I stop 

and flip it upside 

down and put 

a plant on it. 

Then I smile

and feel the 

freedom 

set in. 

Because for 

the first time 

in 10 years

I am truly

me

and I am free.