That Will Be My Way

When 

you look

back

your

heart

will stop.

Put on 

your red 

shoes and

red lipstick.

There is

a lesson

in all

of it

but it

continues

to unwrap

itself

on its 

terms.

Full 

circle does

not do 

it justice.

Its like

your

heart filling

up so full

it hurts.

Being alive

is so exhilarating

that when

you 

take a breath,

you smile. 

Let that

feeling

become

tattooed 

like a second

skin

on your

inside. 

Now

turn

around

 its

like

your heart 

is aching

for something

that can not

be filled.

Not like

that. 

Everything becomes

so fast

so small

so hard 

to hold onto.

You lose 

yourself

while still

knowing 

yourself for 

the very first 

time in your life. 

You laugh more.

You cry more.

You are replaceable 

and not really seen.

The world sees

you for what you

are.

An older version 

of them. 

Putting on

my red lipstick

and 

my red shoes

I can 

not deny

the truth

of what is to 

become.

But I will

dance

with it 

and smile

the whole

way through. 

That will be my 

way.