Holding On So Tightly

As I watched

a piece of 

trash being 

blown 

by a July 

wind

right 

before a storm.

I started to walk

faster

to beat the storm.

As the wind

and rain

danced around

my body

I walked faster.

I saw something

that reminded

me of you

and stopped.

I let the rain

beat my skin 

and the wind

tried to

knock me over.

And in the moment

I let the storm

take away 

the weight of

your choices

and forgave

myself. 

I forgave myself

for holding

on so 

tightly

and allowed 

myself to let go.